>>49948457>favorite Pokemon memoryWhen I was hatching eggs for my friend to have a specific Pokemon for a new playthrough of Ultra Sun, I ended up getting a shiny and got to keep it because it was female with the wrong nature/ability (forgot which one) and he wanted a male with a different nature/ability.
>how are youKinda bad. Besides IRL things, isolation has been a big thing lately where I don't want to talk to others because I think that I'm a very difficult person to talk to. I feel like I always say the wrong things and that I'm annoying and nobody legitimately enjoys my company. It's a surprisingly juvenile thing to think about in one's late 20s but I can't really think about any times that I haven't somehow fucked up and made someone upset in some way. I think what's caused it to get worse is trying to get back into an old fandom I was into as a teen, and my biggest fear is that someone remembers me and spreads the word to not talk to me because of how I was. That was 10 years ago and the fandom wasn't very big, but it's bigger now with a lot of fresh faces. People (particularly teens/schizos who are too "online") really like to drag up old dirt and have that thrill of "calling someone out" and looking like the good guys warning others about bad people. Even if I didn't do anything too bad (all the stuff that happened was over a decade ago anyways) it's the anxiety that eats me alive. People online are more easily aggravated and will find anything to pick apart to tear someone down. I also find people on the internet/in fandoms difficult to talk to in general because so many of them are mentally ill teens who can't stop seething about gender/politics and are basically ticking time bombs for mental breakdowns. I use 4chan specifically just so I don't have an identity. Part of me always says that I shouldn't care and typically I think I don't, but humans always seek approval from their peers and I am very lonely so it's even worse.
