>>31140248It kind of did feel like a movie at times with us. Especially since I'm the sort of person that's closed off and aloof by default—finding someone that I could feel 100% comfortable with and share all of myself with was a HUGE deal. Emotionally, psychologically, it all just seemed to 'click'. That strong bond I felt of course just made the times when we'd fight even worse.
I kind of understand the 'idealized' pain thing, I think. Sorta gotten it into my head over time that some people are worth the pain. I'm a god damn glutton for punishment.
He's 19. He has his problems too of course and I'm a pain in the ass to deal with, how it ended that night just shook me to the core. Need to make some big decisions.
