>>39364952That's a creative way of lightening up something that happened to me.
About 10 years ago, I had a Near Death Experience (have to call it that cause I'm still alive) but cardiac activity was gone for about 10 minutes.
You've ever seen Full Metal Alchemist? It's kind of like that, mixed in with Lovecraft stuff.
One of the places I went to, I call "The Infinite Repository" You can consider it "Truth's Gate" or "The Giant fucking eyeball inside of the door where all possible data exists."
Long story short with it, got to see "The Living Light" God, Allah, The One, whatever you want to call it. I got rejected from joing It because I had "Ego and Identity" that I flat out cursed at it and was pissy. So I got smacked into The Repository before I ended up in the Flatlands, I guess technically Purgatory/Limbo/Hell or something. I walked through a stone door there, and then I woke back up in my own body and I was in the hospital and a doctor was like "Um... hey man, you were dead."
The 10 years after this I've been trying to understand what the fuck I saw, trying to give it form and name, and trying to remember what the fuck I saw when I got yeeted.
Funny enough, when I meditate and recollect on the event, I get peeks and glimpses so I try to logically piece it together, and then I wind up with these data sets that seem insane, if not schizoid sounding.
That's why I say, "It seems I'm welcome, however I'm reluctant, because the whole entire thing is a massive trauma that challenges everything I understand."
Try explaining to someone that you died and you came back let alone trying to explain that you got to peek at an Infinite amount of Data that you really can't understand and comes out as "Crazy loony people speech." Especially when the pieces you logically try to put together don't really match up to people's belief systems, or invalidates their own viewpoints and perspectives.
