>>38673010okay, thanks for letting me know. i'm actually extremely embarrassed by it, but i want it to be more than a quick thought. i want to remember it.
it's about the cave i mentioned wanting to live in earlier.
for many years, i've felt as if making an impression on the world, or at the very least one person (especially after death), is a matter of fact or intrinsic in some sense, and because of this, i've began to wonder just what sort of recognition my cave decorated in precious, colorful jewels and treasures could receive after my life has come to an end. for those who may discover it; i would hope it is a thought-provoking find for them. i would wish for them to ask oneself what kind of person (in this case, Pokémon) once lived there, the kind of life they had, the people and Pokémon they encountered and befriended, the sights they had seen, what it all means... i'd want it to be a work of true art, and even though i know no soul shall come to a deeper understanding and appreciation of it than i, i'd hope it brings with it an ineradicable, monumental culmination of the emotions experienced within my lifetime. i'd want the place i call home to tell a story to those who come across it. i imagine it would look incredibly picturesque and unrealistic (but i think i like it that way) – those radiant jewels illuminating my dark cavern, and the shallow, crystal clear waters faintly reflecting them. from a subjective point of view, there’s a real intensity somewhere in that portrayal, but i know that i'm not good enough at communicating it and i never will be. maybe it’s better that way though.and as the world continues to turn, mercilessly rejecting my presence, the work of art crafted by my physical body is still left behind. i ask myself: "is this fair to me? for myself, and my place of refuge to be separated forever, as if it weren't adored?" but then, fairness is simply an artificial construct, isn’t it? 