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Here is my question anyway. Anyone that will give me actual advice i will, forever appreciate and post more poketiddies.
Basically,due to my past psychological problems (for the vast majority caused by my father),now he holds me firmly like i am in a cage. He uses these mental problems that he caused to me (he used to verbally abuse me,raised hands when i was a kid,never been on my emotional side development) to make me look like a bad person. When we argue he always has the knife from the handle because,he makes me look like I'm still mentally ill to this very day even tho i had those problems like 5-7 years ago.
It's a real bad situation. I cannot escape. I cannot pose a reaction because I'm forever marked still,as a mentally ill person and so,if i react even a tiny bit more than i should,im totally screwed. I don't think it's fair that,due to past problems not even caused by me,i have to pay the price today. Nobody is helping me, and it's an AWFUL sensation to constantly feel trapped, constantly feel that you have no option but to silently obey and behave like they tell you. It's fucking awful and i would never wish my situation not even to the worst of my enemies.
I would like to leave the house,but i cannot. I don't have a job,i don't have anyone in which i can rely on to ask for help,i don't know where to go. I cannot even bring my father to court because,i already the same story of everytime will be repeated in front of the judge... Im seriously thinking to live in my car because I'd rather do so, instead of constantly feeling like this.
I beg any of you Anons. If there's someone who's been in my same situation in or similar,please...do give me any advice. I really need it
