>>48724435 I have some severe mental problems of somekind, probably unchecked Assburgers is one - but thats least of my concerns currently...
I was recently busy having another idiotic meltdown episode like this one here >>48676722 after realizing JolteonAnon will probably not make it before X-mas
I dont really get why I keep being obsessed of him, its not gonna make him turn-out any better at all, it might even become worse if he'd get mad at me doing this shit for so long I used to be a greasy self-loathing stone cold narcissistic bastard prior to this happening - and also one of those lazy-ass 'clever' idiots who keep on thinking ''You cant do no wrong if you dont do anything at all" - but this approach isnt working for me anymore and its just feels too late to start acting like a so-called '"properly functioning'" (as if this actually had ever meant anything beyond surrendering yourself into providing constant supply of fresh baby-meat for the ultra-capitalist meatgrinder with some random clam-owner of your choice) member of general society, but now that any attempt of interacting with regular folks in any form makes my brain physically cringe in literal minutes from inability to relate to them (i.e. not liking to drink yourself into unconciousness is not appreaciated here, and the same goes for not watching any sports earnestly),so I just dont really bother doing any of this dumb normie shit thats just not for me in the long run, and constantly quit midway before anyone realizes im less than no fun to be around...
>TL;DR - imagine to be scared of actually living within a society I only say this and what Ive said before elsewhere without any shame, simply because this den of real Autism is literally the only place where its allowed to do so nowadays without any real consequences - besides some snide remarks form random faceless E-goons
