>>31925868I promise you that I'm not, this is how I've felt for a long time. Is it really getting that bad? I've been taking medicine for a while but they never said anything about me being psychotic. I mean, Nanu and Looker are cool, and there's some cool masculine characters that I've seen outside of Pokemon too lately, like Reigen and Kira, but I don't know. Even when I didn't think about being cute all the time, I was never really happy being being like that, you know? I'm not attracted to it, it didn't make me feel good about myself. I watch anime and some cartoons and see cute girls or even cute boys and they wear cute clothes and they're happy and have so much fun, and it sort of makes me want to be like that. I'm not really feminine physically at the moment either, and I don't feel especially happy.
And, I mean, it's not so much that I need characters to have similar skin to mine to connect to them, it's just that I've always sort of resented it, and it makes me feel not cute. But Hau is cute and a boy and tannish, so he makes me feel like gap between where I am and where I want to be isn't as big, if that makes sense. Would his hair really not work? That's disappointing.
>>31925900please do not
