>>49118120 I do not blame you for that...
Sorry if it took me this long to notice, I might have done so earlier if I wasnt so hesitant to understand what's the meaning of all of this...
I have spoiled your fun too many times and you know it well...
Please remember, you are not to blame no matter what you had been told before - I wouldn't been alive anymore in your place, already tried it for most stupid of reasons in the past...
Its was your first catched mythical, wasn't it? 