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I've spent the past ten years of my life in a self destructive spiral because I spent the longest time blaming myself for the deaths of the kids that the person who sexually abused me as a child went on to kill, telling myself if I'd just gotten over my fear and told someone, he'd have been locked away. I've started to pull out of it, but I'm going on thirty now with no college degree. I'm incredibly smart, but without a degree, I go through a string of jobs where I'm always the quiet smart guy. Every time I hear someone ask me why I'm working there, I want to blow my brains out just a little bit more. I'm giving things another shot or two, but if I can't get back in school and get my life on track in the next few years, I'm going to find my dog a good home, go to a spot with a nice view where I won't be found, have my first drink in five years, then suck start a shotgun.
