>>43849559I'm sorry if you're upset, but I'm just trying to help you. You don't do well on this site, nothing good ever comes from here. You aren't retarded, I never said you were, and I'm sorry if you're upset, but you never listen to anyone. You just keep getting hurt and nothing changes, you keep getting banned but come back, and you won't listen to anyone who honestly wants to help you get to a better place. If you really do want something to improve, you need to make the change yourself.
I deal with depression, I deal with suicidal thoughts, I deal with shitty conditions in my own life that make me want to curl up in a ball and die, I hurt, I cry, I struggle to get up some days, but I can tell you with 100% certainty it's always worth trying to make it better. Some days suck and people are dicks, but you can improve your situation if you put work in and try. You need to try though, instead of floating through life waiting for the next check and getting bullied on 4chan until you want to disappear again. There are a lot of people who can help you, but you need to stop ignoring them if you want things to improve. You really can't post here, or lurk here, if you want to stop getting bullied. It's not fair, but it's the truth.