>>28129134Let me tell you something brother, every night after my bouts of depression and anxieties, I take a look into the introspective mirror that is my "self".
I look in and I see a confused child growing more and more bitter with each passing day. I am burning with rage and being swallowed by the waves of sadness I feel at the state of humanity
My disappointment at how one person can hurt another so deeply sinks me down to the depths of the ocean and the hope I feel when I hear of common human decency so cruely lifts my heart only to be thrown down and stepped on again
I find myself angry at my predecessors and elders, how could they let things end up like this and why would they feed us idealistic lies
DO THEY WANT US TO GROW INTO DISAPPOINTMENT?! OR ARE THEY SIMPLY HOPING THAT IF THEY TEACH US THESE THINGS WE WILL SHAPE THE WORLD IN THAT IMAGE?
I CANT AFFORD TO BE SO SANCTIMONIOUS HOWEVER FOR I LOOK INSIDE MYSELF AND SEE A FOOL
A FOOL AND A SLAVE
A SLAVE TO MY INSECURITIES, DESIRES AND IMPULSES
THE SELF I ONCE ADMIRED AND LOVED NOW MARRED AS AN UGLY SHELL
A REMINDER OF WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN
I LOOK AT MYSELF AND WEEP FOR MY POOR MOTHER WHO IN PAIN BROUGHT ME INTO THIS WORLD AND IN PAIN WILL WATCH ME LEAVE IT I WEEP FOR MY MOTHER
I WEEP FOR MY OWN SOUL, I CANNOT ESCAPE THE ANGUISH AND TORMENT OF MY OWN MIND
NOR CAN I ESCAPE THE EVER PRESENT AND CRUEL GOD NO MATTER WHERE I GO
I PRAY EVERY NIGHT NOT TO WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING AND YET I DO
FOR HE MOCKS ME
HE MOCKS ME
I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED AND YET I HAVE NOTHING
I SEEK FREEDOM AND THE ONLY FREEDOM I SEE IS DEATH
YET I AM BOUND BY MY RESPONSIBILITIES TO OTHERS WHO HAVE BEEN SO FOOLISH OR UNLUCKY TO HAVE BEEN BURDENED WITH CROSSING THEIR FATES WITH MINE
FOR I CAN NOT SIMPLY SEVER THE STRING THAT TIES US TOGETHER WITHOUT DAMAGING THEIRS AND BECOMING WHAT I HATE MOST
SOMEONE WHO BRINGS MORE HATE AND HARM INTO THIS WORLD
LET ME HAVE THE SIMPLE PLEASURES I CAN ENJOY LIKE HAVING A CONVERSATION
