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>25
>obsessive helicopter mom with BPD kept me by her side for years
>everywhere I went she had to roam nearby to make sure I never escaped
>developed no social skills due to mom always doing everything for me
>never worked a day in my life due to this and severe anxiety
>bullying and being abused made me drop school at 15, though I did graduate in another way
>still have school nightmares to this day, every day
>in those dreams I'm friends with everyone and had a proper education and graduation
>the first and only bf I had I met through steam and thought it would be a good way to open myself to the world
>he ended up trying to molest me and then unironically became a tranny after being influenced by some Russian guys on vrchat
>saw what being a slut did to my mom so I'm deathly afraid of sex and am still a virgin
>have no skills, no talents, nothing to offer
>even after this pandemic ends, all the people with amazing prospects who got laid off will be the first to get jobs, who would ever hire someone who never did a single thing in her life and is good for nothing
>scared to even try new things because anxiety is so crippling I literally freeze in place
>"study" Japanese online but everytime my name is called I unplug my headphones and pretend I'm AFK because I'm scared of answering incorrectly and being mocked and humiliated, in turn I'm not learning anything
>only have two "friends" who I sometimes speak to in Telegram
>have no friends irl
>even the "friends" I had during my childhood/teenage years admitted they hung out with me due to pity back then, before all ditching me at 15
>nobody misses me, nobody acknowledges me
>only my mom
>hate myself so much I sometimes use blunt objects to hit myself in the thighs or arms
>have done nothing worthwhile with my life and I'm only getting older
>don't see a way I'll ever become someone needed, wanted, useful, that isn't a waste of oxygen
