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>Metang
>when I was a kid, me and my brother got caught in a rip current, got scared when I couldn't feel ground, then a convenient wave washed me back ashore. My brother was alright. Left the beach frightened. Went right back in a day later
>Mom used to put a lot of pressure on me to do good in school and wants to know my homework n stuff. I still procrastinate and talk little about my life to her.
>was borderline suicidal in high school. was stressed out about my future. mom infects me with stress she gets from her medial condition and anxiety. The fact that she got pneumonia and I didn't care much is disheartening, and even looking back I can't bring myself to say "what was wrong with me" on an emotional level
>fell in and out of two groups of friends. I say something unclever and mean to one of the ones I don't like and can probably never show my face to them again. In the second group, made a foolishly offensive and unfunny joke in front of a few, may or may not've told others, but one of them doesn't like me so who knows. in the back of my mind I worry that I may fuck up again with my current group
>political bullshit in the current year and faggotry from both liberals and conservatives cause my blood to boil, but I feel powerless against the perfect storm of stupidity
>Currently mom is stressed with my younger brother with school performance. Sometimes ends up crying. Dad is calm, but concerned. I don't know what the fuck is going on.
>permavirgin. my lust feels useless and torments me. also being a virgin makes me feel inadequate
>parents love me, but I feel like I take my life for granted
>my apathy makes me resilient and helps me cope, but also makes it difficult for me to improve myself. my apathy also makes me take my parents and my living conditions for granted, and I can't even get angry at myself for my flaws. my parents love me and have hope for me, but all I have for me is doubt and apathy
