>>18595919Back around gen 3 (Think I was 10) I was pretty done with existing. I wasn't seeking attention or anything retarded like that but at that point i gave it a goood thought and realized whats the point in existing if you're just going to lose it all at the end or whenever you die?
Why do I have to walk to this shit hole every day and possibly get robbed because I was born less fortunate.
Why was I born this specific race and my friend got Richer parents and better genes from the get go.
Why does my mom want me to get all these good grades if not interested in any of lifes "Pleasures"
What the fuck is the point in Living if you're just living to continue living even though you're going to die..Why not just exhaust the cycle and die.
But then after more thought of tossing my ass in front of a school bus every morning A friend offered me Ruby for a few bucks . Had quite the amount of fun with it, Loved the music and hadn't had that much fun since Red. Then I lost it. Depression returned
Hanging with friends got boring, Sports, Exercise, Other games, T.v. Girls all seemed like a retarded waist of time even at that age . Id lost interest in everything.
Then Pearl came out. Played it for a looong while and I went back to being happy again. Met a lot of people. Helped a lot of people.
My pearl got stolen back in middle school and the depression slowly returned. Got Y a few months ago finished it in a few days and they depression is gone again.. Watching the old Pokemon Movies and the games seem to always be enjoyable. Still I have to hide it to escape the retarded comments. People don't expect a guy like me to still be interested in Pokemon
Pokemon, Cyberpunk and Game Dev are my go too Anti-depressant They never let me down.
Gotta find something to fill the Pokemon spot soon. Kinda losing its spark for me.
