>>46998089if you're dedicating tons of time of your life to someone who won't be what you need then you need to move on for yourself, i know you know this, and caring for someone out of obligation especially if they can't understand the situation your in is clear that you are a crutch to them and they bring you down.
you have the strength to end things and move on, i understand that it's not that easy but you have the sentiment, come to terms with it and do it, you can.
sawk is a nice pick by the way, not something i see often since him and throh are mons i generally overlook.
>>46998001shedinja is a lovely mon, and your reasoning is really sweet.
it's good that you recognize that you're in a better place even if it isn't ideal now, seeing light in darkness shows resolve, congrats on being clean, addiction is brutal and most people that haven't experienced it don't understand it.
>>46997936it's easy to want to give up in the wake of loss, at least with uni the semester is winding down so it'll give you a chance to build yourself up, i don't know exactly where you are but something i have to remind myself on is that it's okay to move on, personally i dread moving on into uncertainty but everyday i have to find small things to cling to, things to appreciate and remind myself why i haven't killed myself.
i hope you're able to find that hope, it's extremely hard to shift a mindset, wishing you the best.
>>46998010drawing is something that takes an incredible amount of time to get anywhere solidly, if you aren't set on doing it don't be afraid to look around, forcing yourself into a hobby isn't a great idea, ease into something you enjoy the struggle with.
>>46997873whatever comes of this won't be the end even if it feels like it now, this will pass with time even if it's hell now, as it sounds from what you say you're not gaining anything from this and it's slowly rotting away at you.
reaching the character limit so have to cut short, ganbatte anon.
