>>56406022>>56406133Idk, it's a mixed bag. I'd been on the same antidepressant (Welbutrin) for probably over 2 years now and wanted to get off of it because I think it was making me feel kind of apathetic in general and was impacting like... my ability to visualize things and have dreams. But now that I'm off of it I haven't noticed much of an improvement in the shit I was complaining about in the first place. I'm thinking I maybe just need to go back to a therapist and work on some other shit to see if that helps. I can still enjoy things, don't get me wrong, but it bugs me that I can't enjoy things *as much* as I used to. At least on the Welbutrin I was still able to create things and find enjoyment in that, something I hadn't been able to do for years and years. (I have ADHD as well and take stimulants, but lately even with the stimulants my motivation is completely shot.)
I guess I'll take feeling kind of bleh and apathetic and trying to figure out a way to work through that over spending my days accomplishing nothing creative. I feel worthless if I can't create things. That's just me though.
Anyways, blog posting over. I hate playing medication roulette but I'll still take meds over feeling how I used to going through life cold-turkey.
