>>46530774It's autistic, and I've tried hard to overcome it, but I can only at most tolerate human x Garde. Some days it still makes me really upset like it always used to. Only reason I stay here is because I have nobody else like me, or even just a shipfag, to talk to. If I did, I'd probably leave this place permanently, or at least spend much less time here.
I also just wish to be able to live out my fantasies, but meditation is really difficult for me. I tried to go see my Garde lover last night and it was just a mess.
