>>29496327>when I was younger my parents were often at work and my brother at school so I only had my grandma to talk to>one day I come home from kindergarten>parents tell me my grandma died>hide in the basement and cry, barely eat anything for a few days>finally accept it and move on>I was always a pretty quiet kid, while other kids were running around screaming I would quietly sit there and draw>none of the other kids ever asked me if I wanted to play with them, the only non adult I had contact with was my brother who introduced me to Pokemon>didn't make any friends until the end of first grade>became friends with the one kid everyone bullied for no reason and get bullied myself when trying to defend her>she liked Pokemon too and we often played together>when she was in 5th grade she went to a different school, therefore we couldn't play as much>go to her house one day only to be told that they had to move away>lost my first and only friend>in 5th grade everyone decided to either ignore or bully me for no reason, most likely because I was a new kid and also the shortest and therefore looked vulnerable>this continued for three more years, which is one of the reasons I became even more shy and distanced myself from everyone as much as possible>made another friend in 5th grade who had an abusive father>because of him she became a massive bitch>now I avoid people even more because I don't want to be backstabbed again>in 9th grade I met a guy who also liked vidya>he talked to his other friends more than he talked to me>lost contact after a few yearsafter having every single person I ever liked taken away from me besides my parents and brother, getting especially hurt by the loss of a friend because I have trouble making friends and therefore try to keep the ones I have very close and being bullied and hated or ignored by everyone else I have become a shy, anxious, nervous, depressive and lonely wreck no one likes and I'll probably die alone
