>>50284860Genuinely and from the bottom of my heart anon, follow that dream. I won't get into it much, but my life has been... strange and oftentimes difficult, and I have buried many of my family over the years due to the ravages of age and sickness. And I can say with certainty that many people die with regrets towards the life they've lived -- I think that's inevitable to some degree, for everyone, no matter what path they may take -- but a continual refrain throughout these bedside conversations has been "I wish I would have done X more" -- and X is rarely even a big thing.
I wish I would've drawn more. I wish I would've used the good plates, more. I wish I would've played more guitar, played more records, gone to Australia before I died. We are all limited by the constraints of the society we're surrounded by, the relative disparity in our ability to make time and have resources (both financial and in terms of time and energy) to do the things we're most driven to do- but I think it's not only worthwhile, but deeply necessary for us to do so as people. Because life isn't minted in the moments we spend doing database entry, and it isn't fulfilled in the time we spend commuting from point A to point B. Life is found in the cracks between obligation, and for some, in work that gives their life meaning.
I think, too, that the drive to monetize the hell out of every little thing we can possibly do in order to justify our hobbies as a worthwhile investment is killing our ability to enjoy things -- "you can't draw/write/sing enough to make a living, so why bother? It's a waste of time!"
Do it because you enjoy it. If it brings a modicum of peace and joy to your soul, that's all the justification it takes. Live authentically, anons- it may run counter to the general nihilistic acrimony that permeates this website, but I'll keep saying it even if people roll their eyes. Find some joy in this world wherever you can. It's worth it.
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