>>55364748Parasites cannot exist without a host organism to leech-off from and provide nothing in return.
>>55365608I'm not planning to stay amongst the living past 40 anyways though, also you're underestimating how much I don't care about anything but pure hedonism (itself even starting to cease providing sufficcent happychems lately) anymore at this point.
I haven't felt a need to exist for exactly 50% of my entire lifespan, this is certainly not normal but I don't if I honestly deserve to change that, it's not like I'd ever become a functional member of the common society as someone who spent almost 14 years hiding from the real world inside a glorified driery you know…
I never asked for this, not my fault those chavs who mugged me haven't bashed my head-in for having only a 20 "'reubles"' on me that day - maybe then I wouldn't be riddiculed for not standing up for myself over almost 20 years for now - if something trivial like that was enough to fuck me up this badly, just think of how being actually molested (exactly like I so foolishly still would preffer to) could've fundamentally mess up somebody this frail in the mental departament, maybe I wouldn't be even alive thankfully - because imagine what a silly amateur clown would a real monster such as Nelizar had been compared to me if I hadn't just off myself otherwise…
I was never worthy to have this wonderful technology bestowed upon me - Jannytroons should permaban me again, just so I could get bored enough to do a flip once more as promised. . . 