>>19240968We don't understand your so called "struggle" at all, unless you mean it's "autism" then we could understand.
Anyways, I've solved your mystery. Your're just a cisgender female Goodra who is going through a phase of "autism denial" due to your high functioning autism, AKA. Aspergers Syndrome. All I can say is that you've got it pretty bad. I do hope one day you'll stop caring this much about your species gender, and perhaps you'll become a better person (Yes, "Person" because "Person" can apply to pokemon also.