>>46502164Because Swampert is a sturdy, bulky, monstrous looking amphibian creature, combining my preferred aesthetic for fantastical creatures with my favourite kind of animal.
As of the time of writing I've being relatively okayish, though that isn't really saying much overall considering how unstable my mind inherently is, and the excessive mental effort I have to undertake in suppressing all the various delusions, false fears and occassional hallucinations that I'm consistently beset by, even in a situation when my brain isn't actively working against its own interests in such a manner, it's difficult to do anything of any real value, due to the pervading cognitive issues (such as brain fog) that comes with such mental issues. It also doesn't help that the events of last year regarding my education have plagued me with incredible amounts of repressed anger and bitterness that constantly work to reach the forefront of my mind, the exact specifics of which I shan't bore you with, though I will say that I had to self-harm consistently to cope with the stress and that my suffering only rewarded me with failure.
Additionally to answer any potential queries asking why I don't seek out medication and psychiatric help, I have being receiving such "assistance" for years and it's being completely and utterly useless putting it in polite terms, the medication I took was either useless or exasperated the aforementioned issues, the therapy being less effective than a feels thread like this, simply put I'm not interested in investing time and money into solutions that have consistently proven themselves to be useless at best. 