>>11733555Holy shit bro, your life so far sounds really rough...
Getting into drugs is almost always fucked up, I've lost some old friends to that (not lost like they died, lost because they went another way, but I guess that's normal).
It also looks like that girl you mention also went through a lot to be with you, on your side. From what you told it sounds like she really didn't deserve what happened.
I'm not very experienced on life or love, but maybe you should try to get yourself together, change for real, not promess to change, and grow mentally and physically. Also, maybe you should go after her, get her back, or if you don't want it just apologize. She sounds like someone you shouldn't let go this way.
I hope you get well and use your talents to achieve great goals, and may pokémon be with you!