>>47056383I appreciate the warm regards, & there's no doubt that they love me, but that's exactly the problem:
in this world, there are the pushers who help society, there are the balancers who just stay afloat & out of the way, & there are the dregs who are a burden to society. I'm convinced I'm with the dregs.
I failed college. don't "covid-this" or "covid-that" with me, a failure is a failure, no matter what flavor. I failed college & wasted all of the precious money that my parents invested in my education. when I came home, I tried to stay as out-of-the-way as possible. I know they wouldn't just let me die, so the very least I could do is minimize my burden. but I knew that I wouldn't allow this way to last.
they insisted to want to know me better as an individual, but I already know for a proven fact that everyone I ever care about has been hurt or ruined. if I haven't done that already to them, I didn't want to do it again, so I pushed them away from me. I protected them from myself the only ways I thought I could, but in the end it only tore my family apart from the inside-out.
I soon had enough, so I """stole""" one of their cars & some cash just to drive to like a Lowes or Home Depot or some shit just to buy a rope. I drove back because I had no intention of costing them a full-fucking car, & I tried to hang myself.
I can't even do that right. I fucked up the noose & my neck didn't snap. I asphyxiated myself until comatose, & my parents were stupid enough to try to save my deadweight ass.
anyways, here's a team I just cooked up:
