>>15543232http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mRSIzXEVSs4One day.
One day you're going to look back and realize how much of a straight-up dick you're going to be. But, as much as it's going to hurt, it's necessary. Someone has to break the reality to her, it might as well be you.
You just can't be a nice-guy and let her down like it's no biggie, because it's not. If you had met Shauna weeks ago and had gotten a confession then, then YEAH, you probably would have been pounding that loli wazoo six times into next Sunday.
But shit's happened in-between then and now, you're slightly more wiser than you were when first left for your journey. Now you know, you know the harsh truth, it'll never happen. You can't lead and it's disappointing that you have to come into terms with that.
Other guys can lead, they don't have any problem with telling their bitches what to do and how to do it, but you... Compared to them, you're just a wannabe helper who doesn't "win", or at least get the feeling of winning, because there's something you're not doing right.
Pursuing a relationship with Shauna would be nice and cute, but there's more drawbacks than benefits. If you let it happen, it'll just become a wildfire that'll spread upon the region, tearing up connections you already have with others, messing them all up.
You gently push Shauna away from the embrace, then you grab both her hands. You really wish the fireworks weren't still going on, it's giving her the wrong idea. She's smiling, she looks like she's about to cry tears of joy because one of her dreams is coming true.
You kind of smile too, for a second, because her's is so infectious. It's a warm smile, but it quickly dies out.
You let go of her hands because to be honest, you don't know how to put it into words.
You return to leaning on the railing, staring up at the fireworks, and hoping she gets the memo.
"C-Calem...?"
'Damn.'
"I'm sorry."
