>>42809501There wasn’t any resemblance between the Pokémon and my actual mother, but I had the same fantasies about being raised by
Mew for years as a child. I would create elaborate stories in my head any time I was bored and desperately wanted to live in a fantasy world where I could fly and transform.
>>42811647I’m in almost exactly the same position, anon. I have made two friends, but they both get on my nerves, and I feel terrible for automatically wanting to walk away when we interact. I’m incredibly lonely romantically, too; I never cared about pursuing real life romantic relationships before this year, and I dealt with a lot of loneliness through fan fiction and my own imagination to pretend I had someone who loved me. But now that need for intimacy is getting unbearable and it depresses me to know I’m neither likable or attractive, so my chances are slim to none. Ultimately, I know that I need to work on myself before I try anything close to dating, but it hurts all the same. For you anon, I just want to say that I empathize with your depression and desire to just give up on life after having such a shitty year. It feels incredibly hopeless, and I wonder if anything in my life will ever go as well as it once did as a child. But death doesn’t allow you the opportunity to change your course for the better. Once you are dead, there will be no second chances or routes to find happiness again. I think you, just like I do, would rather live to try to turn your circumstances around because life with all its flaws is infinitely better than nothing at all. I’m rooting for you anon.
