>>48556708 I have been a very sad person recently for a couple of reasons, and it was quite selfish and stupid of me to not start with the real main cause of it all T B H - both my and sister's godfathers have died within less than a year apart between 2019-2020 and in mine's case it was simply tragic
(the hospital he got delivered to refused to treat his heart-attack due to the Covid lockdown restrictions, which made him pass away before the ambulance managed to transport him to another one in time - and to make this year even more shit overall, his wives' dad also died literal days after my 31st birthday - and at his funeral I saw my late godfather's baby grandson, who he himself never got a chance to see - and somehow this propably was my relapse moment, i.e. its when I decided to come back here but now stop lurking and crudely shitpost full-time, knowing too damn well that real-life has nothing to offer me besides misery and dissapointment, because I will never truly be a functional member of society - I just dont fit in at all out there)... And until just now we had'nt got a chance since the 'before-previous' year to go pay our eespects to any of them, I sincerely hope to feel somewhat better after tomorrow ends, and as I said before - no official Halloween equivalent does not help to lighten-up the mood at all...
I just want this meme-flu bullshit to end at last and things get somewhat more normal
