>>56893501I said to myself that this wouldn't become a regular occurrence and I still don't think that this is a regular occurrence yet, but it's happened more than once, so
Almost everyone knows and is accustomed to the fact that we can't have everything that we want but there's a special kind of despair that comes when you basically don't get anything that you want. I like to think that I'm a special case and that very few people have their hopes so regularly and thoroughly crushed that it leads to a worldview where your first question is always "Why do I even bother?". I'm not going to get into the details of it because this isn't my personal blog.
I think I'm starting to realize that writing and by extension drawing is just escapism for me. I often squander time that could be used for playing videogames (which I really want to get back into) or drawing (which I really want to start), or, more importantly, homework, just to be able to distract myself from from how much else I have to take care of and the fact that the list will only grow. But that highlights the main issue, that you can't do everything, and that some things matter more than others. Writing has always been more important than drawing for me and for some time now has been more important than videogames. But I often find it competing with my responsibilities. So now this is the part where I'm going to give some advice to aspiring writers here and it's the advice that nobody else is going to give you.
>YOUR DREAMS DON'T MATTER VERY MUCH.I could really get into some Maslow's Hierarchy bullshit but the simple truth is that there is actually a stupid amount of luck involved in whether or not you can do what you want to. Just having access to 4chan is a huge privilege. I'm quite frustrated with this homosexual, cartoonish, borderline nonsensical go-getter idea that you should always persist and have hope no matter what. The truth is that you need to be lucky, stupid, or naïve to be an optimist-
