>>23265560I know how you feel, about the loss of a loved one being your fear. Here's the thing: You're not Kenshiro. You don't need to bear the burden of sadness within the heavy heart of yours. There's no need for you to bear the fate of the Big Dipper. Please enjoy their presence instead of weeping for their eventual fate, as one day, they could be gone, and you're even sadder having not done anything with them.
My grandma always did things with me, busted her ass off for me, practically treated me like a spiritual son. When I witnessed her getting better from lung cancer, I thought "holy shit, she's getting well again!". Oh, how fucking stupid I was. It turned out they gave her all the painkillers in the world to basically delay her inevitable event.
I wept for her. The very being that was always there for me, that loved me to no end, that helped me through troubled times, my best friend, my beloved not-mother...is dead. It hurt more that she hid it away... just for me to not see her in agony.
My point is that loved ones are there for a reason. They're their to give you their merriment while they still can, as you give them merriment as well. You're wasting it away by thinking horrific thoughts that should never reside. Let the love enter your heart, not the sadness and fear of death.
That sounds gay, but I'm being as supportive as possible.
