>>27634781I don't enjoy life anymore, that's my point.
Forget romance, I can go months betwen feeling the touch of another human being.
I've been alone most of my life. Spent like 10 years of my life working for my father, hoping to earn his love and approval, but it didn't really come. When I stopped trying and working hard, he wanted nothing to do with me. My sisters are married and have their own lives.
I am a man living without love. A broken, sad, pathetic man.
I was homeless for a year. Lost everything. Now I moved to another state, got a job, bought a car, living out of my uncle's basement... but that sense of doing a good job and accomplishment only goes so far. Honestly, it is because I know what it is like to be rejected, alone, cold, teeth rotting, hungry, and smelly that I go forward. Intense pain is my strongest motivator.
When I was younger, getting bullied every day at school, it was only the fear of suicide and my rage that pushed me forward.
