>>30509592First, you are clearly a brooding teenager, which makes you a huge faggot. I must point this out because its customary.
That said, dedicating your life to hatred, wishing illness on your own mother won't do any good. Even worse, it'll end making you worse than she ever was.
When confronted with scorn, repay it with kindness. The single biggest act of rebellion you can do is not to follow your mother's steps. Refuse to grow bitter until your soul is lost to cynism or the day will come when you look yourself at the mirror and can't tell where the little twinkle in your eyes went.
Always preserve your innocence. Sometimes it might seem like you are the biggest fool in the world, a big wide-eyed idealist trying to be something more in decadent times, but the simple purity of those who always meant well cannot be snuffed out, even when the whole world turns against you.
The only way you can pull yourself up from this desolation is if you have the courage to reach out even if you are ridiculed for it, to stand your ground and go against it all, to not let them all break your little heart.
