>>31342874I'll be frank. I know the wounds are still very fresh and you're probably still hung up on a lot of your memories with him, but the fact of the matter is that if he's been cheating on you, he's an asshole and you deserve better than him. You'll meet much better people in your life, people who care much more about you and are loyal. It's gonna take some time getting there, but you'll eventually realize that he's not as special as you've made him out to be in your mind if he's capable of doing that to someone who he was supposed to be 100% devoted to. Hang in there.
I can sort of relate. Everything was going well with us and then at some point she started having weird depressed moods, then a few weeks later she unceremoniously told me in about the most insensitive way possible that she needed to go back to her ex, that she never loved me as much as she loved him, etc., all the deep cutting bullshit that kills you inside. I'm still mad at her but I'm doing my best to move on, even though I haven't found anybody to replace her yet. But it still takes time to get yourself in the right mindset to even have a slight semblance of a clue of what to do with yourself. What I'm saying is work your way through the pain, and keep your eyes open for sweet people who would give the world for you, and who'll treat you like you deserve to be treated.
