>>32305277Did you try the simple option of telling him you like him? Self-deprecation is a big fucking wall to get over.
I mean, if a girl were to like me and I find out, I'd probably go full internal denial, think it's a joke or they're trying to get something out of me or shit like that. Even if I were to be forced to confront facts, I could say "Okay, you like me" out-loud, unironically, but THAT part of me is gonna still twist over inside and repeat "lies lies lies" etc. Its just years of self-deprecation, self-loathing, and the rest just solidified, and after all these years of being free of most of that that solid remnant is still there inside. I can explain and talk about all this rationally out loud, but I still can't get over that internal cringing twist.
But the fact I'm saying all this shows self-awareness. That despite being fucked up inside, I'm aware of it. You seem to also have that sort of neutral distant self-awareness with your own issue here, so that's good.
Here's something interesting. There's a lot of police and investigative data out there that pretty much says 7% of human communication is verbal, 48% is body language, and 45% tone of voice. But despite that, the best way to tell that someone is lying is through their words, what they say - more than half the time, supposed indicators of lying can mean something completely unrelated (like sweating in your seat might just mean the air in the room is a bit warm, and not that you're sweating under interrogation or something).
Basically, just ask him some things outright. Lying is useless for a person who has nothing to hide, or thinks they have nothing to hide.