>>33167083Hello OP. Please do not listen to the false-flaggers. It is obvious they just want to incite drama. I am sorry they feel the need to.
I am sorry I didn't get to this topic earlier and I am very happy many people want to talk to you. If you talk about merely thinking it, I am glad for that compared to you actually going through with it. I hope it can get to where you do not even think on it.
I admit that I too can see happiness as something fleeting and transient, but I also agree on what everyone says in improving yourself to feel better and make others feel better, and that sense of accomplishment and contentment is genuinely satisfying and one of the best feelings in the world. I know even you have done things that are good, no matter how small they may seem to you. And no matter what you may think, they do last forever, because they happened, because you did them. Even simple things like gift-giving or receiving, or making a friend smile, or giving a pet a treat and seeing them brighten up.
I understand if it seems like I am words on a screen and I understand if it feels like things won't get better for a long time. But they can, and I believe they will. Even the smallest things you do to fight back against feeling suicidal count and will build up. Any goal is able to be attained and I believe in you being able to achieve yours.
Even if it is on this site, I am glad you took the time to vent and get it out of your system, and I would much rather you do this than keep it built up inside you. I hope your next day goes better and the one after as well.
There is no bait. I genuinely hope you feel better. You are a good person. 
