I am PISSED, I am TIRED, and I am at my wits. I can't take it anymore, I can't stand being in BL all my life. Can't participate in UU and flawed in OU to the point I am a "niche pick"

I can't take it. One more gen of BL Hell and I'll Brave Bird suicide recoil bomb myself into Prism Tower. Don't think I'm serious? I have a Choice Band and a 6+ Attack+Speed buff from a Baton Pass from a kind Scolipede (She thinks I'm gonna use it for Mountain climbing lol she's as kind as she's dumb). I am not kidding unless GF gives me buffs to OU material something is gonna fall and Its not gonna be just my HP.