This may be the wrong board, but fuck it, I need to vent

>few months back, my mother passes
>receive some of my old things in the mail, most of my stuff most likely long gone
>few of my furbies, my SNES, and some of my GB games
>all my pokemon stuff, among other things not even there
>when my mother left me to move away, she took everything I had, but at least I was able to get some things back
>get a little depressed about this, as it's been 15 years since I saw her, or the stuff
>kept saying all my stuff was with her
>find out all my stuff was left in storage, except a few things
>because she moved away, the storage went up for auction, including things my great aunt made for me
>few weeks ago, find out that the gen 1 and gen 2 games have save batteries
>ohshit
>boot up each one to make sure, all saves are still there
>sigh a relief, go to amazon, buy a monster brain
>did two day shipping
>amazon managed to send it to the wrong place
>didn't get it until a week later, today
>back up my mother's red
>back up my blue
>back up my yellow
>all gen one checked out fine
>go to back up gen 2
>notice continue is missing on my mother's gold, my silver, and my crystal
>break down in tears as the last connection I actually had to my mother is gone
>blame myself because when I was young, I moved all my pokemon to my silver and crystal, including a very special pokemon to me
>said pokemon was a Scyther my mother caught for me back in gen 1 days, and has always been in my party
>when I moved it to my silver, found out it was a shiny
>blame amazon for fucking up the order
>had it been here when it should have been, g/s/c would have been saved

I know it's silly to cry over something like a save game, but it was the last thing I had of my childhood, and the last connection I had with my mother. Pokemon was the thing that my mother and I really bonded with, and to be honest, I'm devastated. It's like I lost her all over again.