>>34943665This made me want to reply and I guess I’ll share why
There isn’t really anyone close to me. Hasn’t been for almost two years. All of my friends don’t talk to me anymore after we all moved away, and I try to speak wit them but it’s not the same anymore. Now they don’t even reply to me.
My family has fallen apart. They’re a mess and they haven’t wanted to speak to me for some time now. Even when I was younger we barely talked and we never really got along. I was probably closer to my friends than to my brother
My gf of a couple years completely shut me out. She was kind of in a similar situation to me so I wanted to be the one person that was close to her. I worked in high school to save up for college and whatever extra I made I trie shelling her. Took her out. Whatever she needed, and she was grateful. For a while she wanted to marry me, even told me the specific church and town she wanted to do it at. Though one day she just suddenly cut me off and then broke up with me. Got a new boyfriend a few weeks later. I tried staying friends but she just tells me that I’m not important to her anymore and to fuck off.
Basically I’m alone in college. I went from having a lot of close people in my life to no one, and I’ve tried to make new friends but it’s not the same. Just studying all day and working, with no one to call close sucks and I’m in so much debt now between school and trying to afford my living expenses. I just don’t want to live in a world where I feel this alone. Even one person would’ve been enough but it’s literally just me and I’ve tried to stay positive and work hard and change but I’m just exhausted and I don’t want to try anymore
In all serious though I really didn’t want to complain about myself, I just wanted to talk about Pokémon or anything I guess, some form of communication
