I just can't take it. I'm not angry at gamefreak. I'm just sad. I'm hurt in many more ways than i have words. I didn't have a good childhood growing up and without pokemon i don't think i could have made it here. I never saw them as pixles or simple pictures but as friends. I saw myself cheering them on or getting mad at them as if they where my friends. Because they where. I had no one else. These pokemon mean so much to me and i'm just expected to shove them into home and get over it and buy the next games. Why. Why can't i take my friends with me. Why does it hurt. I don't want it to hurt. I kept getting mad about so many things about the games simply to distract myself because it doesn't feel like i'm bringing anyone with me. I feel like i'm abandoning them in a prison. I was so excited to camp with my old friends. I didn't care about the art style. I didn't care about the graphics that much. I saw it and said wow. I was so excited. But now i'm just sad. I want to explore galar. I want to play the games. But i want to bring my friends with me. So many people have left me. So many have abandoned me or threw me to the side. I don't want to do that to my pokemon. It's breaking my heart. Please help vp. Help me not to hurt i don't even care if you call me gay or a fag or whatever just make it not hurt anymore.