>>40918214Don't do it anon. If you jumped in front of a train, not only would that hurt as it occurred, but it has the possibility you could survive and have to live with all those injuries the rest of your life. It would also scar those who had to witness the event, placing the pain you're feeling onto them, as they have to live the rest of their lives knowing they saw a man die horrifically before their eyes. There are stories of people needing counseling all their lives after standing near a jumper by happenstance, only to be splattered with the blood and entrails a few moments after.
No matter what way you attempt to do it, you're just going to displace your pain onto another person, if not multiple people.
And even ignoring that aspect, it's a waste to simply go out by your own hands.Most, if not all, people that attempt it and survive say that moment during it's occurrence was the worst part of their entire existence, far worse than the problems they had before hand, and I wouldn't wish for you to experience that as well. Life is a pain, and it's full of turmoil, but it's still something you can craft and build into something, and while it can be bleak, it has highs and lows, and that pain can become comfort and that turmoil can become peace; it's an experience that only you can have. I plead you to seek help on your journey, so you can find a way to enjoy the gift that has been bestowed upon you.