>>44455417I quite literally have no purpose nor place in this world. My life is meaningless. There's nothing that motivates me, nothing that inspires me, I have no goals, no dreams, nothing. All I do is eat, shit and sleep, even writing this right now is taking a conscious effort because I don't even have the energy to do stuff like this. I feel empty, nothing gives me joy, I have no hobbies, I studied a career I felt nothing for simply because that college was barely 17 minutes away from home, and even now that I'm close to graduating I just honestly can't give a shit anymore. I don't feel anything towards the things I used to be mildly interested about, I'm still "taking" my language courses but open up Skype, pretend I'm there while I'm actually staring at the wall, wait for the class to end to close it and go back to wall staring. Even in Steam I'll buy dozens of games and then I'll just stare at my library, opening nothing.
I don't know what I want, I don't even know what I want to eat every day, I don't want to do anything, I'm.. not even tired, I just am. I envy people who can say they love something, or even just like. Sometimes I'll go to other boards like /cgl/ just to lurk and it's honestly shocking seeing that people exist that like things, and they do said things and share them with others, that they find happiness in those things. I don't know that feeling. I don't even feel anything towards Pokemon, I'm only here cause it's the only board with a topic I used to enjoy long ago and where I can "talk" to others even if for a little while.
I'm 25, I have no friends irl, and online I have 1 1/2. Everytime someone new wants to talk to me I just can't be bothered. I've never worked, don't have skills nor abilities. I've been in a relationship once but I just didn't feel it either. I'm empty, I'm nothing, I have nothing to offer, nothing to live for. I have no energy, no will, no drive, I don't know why I'm here, what will become of me, I just don't know.
