>>47892316Yes it was. It was scary, even though my babysitter was really nice to me and pretty, she was still 14 years older than me. I got scared while she had me sit on her lap and played with my penis, when she kissed and licked my penis, and when she had me rub my penis in and around her privates and butt. I got scared when I had an orgasm, but was too young to actually ejaculate. I got scared when my penis was in her because the sensation and pleasure was way too intense.The only reason it was made better is because she would always hug and kiss me after and tell me I was a good boy. I was too scared to tell anyone because she was pretty, nice to me, made me yummy food, was affectionate with me, and she told me not to tell anyone or we wouldn’t be able to see each other again. I was abused, and later when I was 14 she contacted me and made herself my first real sexual partner after puberty. I do have a sexy mommy gf now, even if she’s 2 years younger than me; but I still feel ashamed about how much I like it when she babies me.
