nobody will read this since this thread will get deleted so i wanna share my story. get it off my chest
So I went out with my sister and a few of her friends plus my friend from the same school. Kind of a small reunion at a park. 5 people and we sat at the bench eating pizza. Havent seen them in five years. I was 20 at the time and havent socialised properly bc depressive episode. I felt so cringe cuz they dont know me anymore and Ive changed completely.
One of them asked me why did you leave school and not stay for the sixthform. I said I wanted to make new friends and then she said “well that didnt work did it, you still have no friends”. I sat there like “._.” cuz she dont know my life and I made hella friends but didnt say anything cuz i like my life private bc I move reckless lol. Ptsd has also been a part of why i was so quiet at school and didnt socialise much.
When we were eating pizza at the bench, something funny happened and I laughed and the pizza flour dust fell on this girls front hijab and then my sis and that girl that was asking me about friends was telling her she has some dust on her hijab but they didnt tell her until after but I think they noticed the dust when it happened not sure and the dusty girl was saying what is it, thats strange. And I felt so embarrassed and cringing for the rest of my life. Bc I make an appearance after 5 years and this is how I present myself????
Someone please tell me its not that bad and that they wont remember it. I made a fool of myself. Just sign me my coffin
