>>48886701>Get a new identity, move out to another country, go on a trip around the world, I don't know man just try to do something. You were already planning to die so you have nothing to lose to try all those shits.You don't get it, anon. I'm literally never happy, no matter what I do. Whenever I try something new, I just fail at it miserably due to the lack of interest that I have in it and/or me failing to understand how said thing works. It's never going to get better. I've heard many people say things will get better eventually, but everything for me has been going in a downwards spiral in the last 3 years or so, and I just don't see how I'll ever be able to fix them.
I don't even think that it's depression, since I still find to things to laugh at on the internet sometimes, and I don't think it's legit autism, since most of the autists I've heard about don't sound like me. it's just that I don't care about anything, and even if I do, I'm too incompetent to succeed at anything I'd try to do. The only things that keep me from ending it is that I'd probably ruin my parents (who I've already disappointed countless of times) and the fact that I might fuck up on my suicide attempt and be left in a worse physical state.
