>>49251703I'm in the same boat, but I've long since accepted that I'm quite fine on my own, since I worry too much about how much my social anxiety would get in the way of a proper relationship and all. I've made lots of friends in all the schools I've gone through, and yet all of them fell off as soon as the year ended and now I only have two still sticking with me.
But good luck to you, man. You sound like you need it.