>>49625752If someone even as crazy as him truly and 100% believed that he'd have killed himself by now, no doubt about it. But he doesn't. He knows he doesn't. If you knew with absolute certainty that the moment you die you would wake up in the Pokemon world, be with your waifu, and life would be absolute bliss, on top of the fact that your current life is absolute misery(being a neet, living in squalor, having no friends, having no social skills whatsoever, crying and screaming every single day, etc) then there would be zero hesitation in tieing that rope. But there is hesitation, because he has those brief moments of clarity, those times where he's not screaming and typing in all caps, where he actually reflects on the sad state of his life, that he's a loser who causes his own problems and only he himself is to blame, and that he almost makes the realization to better himself, but then it slips away as the (semen) demon known as Leaf goads him back into his usual ways, convincing himself that no it's everyone elses fault, that he's fine, that he only needs her, and then it all goes right back to square one. It's honestly almost a pitiable existence, almost.
