>>50259719for a moment i just stare at her. i can feel myself shaking - but so intensely back and forth that the movement is nearly imperceptible.
>"oh come on anon it will be fun!"two thoughts battle in my mind.
>"I have nothing to lose.">"No one can know."the dust from their fight clouds my mind. without any other conscious thought i instinctively raise my arms.
>"what are you doing anon?"the war expands from my mind to my mouth.
>"No one can know.">"anon what are you saying?">"I have nothing to lose."i reach out and press firmly on her neck. my thumbs drive into the center of her neck. my sole focus is on her neck. it quivers slightly as she attempts to gasp for air.
it feels as if i passed out and awoke a few minutes later - but i know i must've been in the same position the entire time. i didn't notice until now that i've been speaking. chanting, almost.
>"No one can know. I have nothing to lose. No one can know. I have nothing to lose. No one can know."magikarp splash around in the distance. her body does as well. but she isn't breathing. her mouth is unmoving. it's my jittery grip on her neck. her last bit of life.
my stranglehold turns to a gentle cradle. the waves take over as we slowly drift apart.
i had nothing to lose. no one will have to know.
