>>53306496OK, so long story short, when I was in my senior year of high school, I had a weird little mental thing I did to motivate myself.
Don't ask me why, but the idea that I was doing this to be better for someone else was far more motivational than doing it for myself.
So I told myself, there was someone that I was doing this for, someone who relied on me.
I was studying so I could get a job and provide - for her.
Every time I dragged myself into a workout, skipped the unhealthy food, went to bed early- it was for her.
It worked surprisingly well.
Also, I might note, I had no idea what a tulpa was at this time. I was relatively uninitiated into the internet, I mean, I only found this website like a couple months ago. (I just visit /vp/ because everything else is horribly toxic and bad for the mental health)
Anyway, over time, this immaterial, vaguely feminine "her" started to, well, develop. Take characteristics that I can't entirely say I thought of myself.
I guess I thought of her as a real person for so long, that my mind decided that she would be.
Now, i'm not entirely sure why, but the first time I saw her (Well, in a dream), she wasn't a human. In retrospect, I don't think I ever actually envisioned her as being so.
She was a zoroark, or something close to it.
Now, I'm not super into the whole pokephilia thing.
But hey, I saw the movie with her in it, and shit, it kind of spoke to my young brain.
So this ethereal entity that I've been trying to better my life for appears before me, and she's a zoroark.
And she likes me.