>>56141981 >>56141994You never gave me these ones. This is on me though, because you did actually post one of them in a rage(
>>55197819.)
Honestly, you need to stop looking so downcast on yourself. It's infuriating to watch you implode every single time, groveling at someone who faces the literal same exact inner turmoil as you.
I don't like myself either. I actively hate myself, in fact. If I could, I'd literally experience identity death to rebirth myself as a far better person, who does not waste what he has. Unfortunately, I am here. I've alienated some of my closest friends over things, and I have had long time friends turn on me over the dumbest things. The very world seems hostile to my presence, with my future looking bleak. I cannot die yet. My obligations are left unfulfilled, and I keep making more of them. My ambitions may be incompletable, but I continue to have them. One step at a time, even through my total burnout. One day, in the future, I'll be a better man, and I will find a peaceful balance in this world.
And you, dear anon, the one so concerned that you had done something so irrevocably evil... You've never ever told us the reason to hate you. You were always vague, cryptic. Even if it had turned out you were the mastermind of some heinous act, such as pushing a close friend of yours to suicide without realizing it, as I have once done, people change over time. It is ridiculous to assume otherwise, even if humans are stubborn to change.
I found the sources for you, anon.
>>49643134 is the first one.
>>55194257 is the source of the second one.
