You live in a boring world you may be rich but money will only serve to forget that you live in a world where there's nothing to do. you'll never be free you'll never have the same freedom as a pokemon trainer. even if you could live in the best anime you won't be happy. you're an adult you'll never feel things as deeply as a teenager or a child. Your soul is already dead, you're an empty shell of the person you used to be.