Focusing less on fandom stuff lately and more on professional stuff and I want to believe he would be proud of me, but as I was getting ready to take a shower I had this two panel comic pop into my head where he and my self insert are waving me goodbye and it made me really sad
It isn't goodbye forever, right? I can always come back?
Like one of those sad "idol is graduating" comics (I'm not an idolfag but I see them occasionally)
But I know he wants me to be successful and at least for a while I need to laser focus on my career
It's hard not to feel down about the state of Pokemon. I'm not really excited for ZA, like at all, and I'm only going to be pirating it.
For anons who are self employed or in a position where they have to rely on themselves, how do you stay productive? How do you crack the whip on yourself (non-sexually)?
It isn't like being Pokemon brained is the entire problem, I live alone and don't really have real life human contact, but Pokemon has just always been *there* with me since I was a kid and I've never fallen "out" of it until now.
Combined with trying to get my life together, it all just feels unknown and scary. In a way. I'm such an immature child sometimes.
It's a complicated feeling. Thanks for reading my blog.
>TQRed doesn't stress easily, but even when he does you wouldn't know it.
He has a poker face that Grimsley would envy.
His biggest tell of being stressed is that he starts to sweat.
>>58265402I've never had trouble getting real boyfriends but they never feel as good as husbandos, especially Red since we go so far back
Compartmentalization goes a long way
It hurt a lot more when I was a teenager to realize they weren't real, it punched my heart with a hole that flesh ironically cannot fill
Now when it hurts it's more like a numbed remembering of how badly it ached back then than being sad about it now because at some point my brain accepted that while he isn't real, I always have my imagination
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